Synmuh Zurh

It's not so typical of myself to dream.. I usually don't have those even most people said that all of us dream, we just can't remember it.. But it happened last night.. I don't know or maybe its just a coincidence that I remember its our assignment in Psych 10. I was worried I have nothing to report 'cause of my dream condition. I don't like this dream at all, after I write it down.. I will erase or even condense it in the back of my mind. The dream goes: I was alone, in a dark gloomy place.. Then, the scene change.. I was in the classroom with all of our classmates and especially you.. Funny thing is, all of the faces in that room was blurry except yours.. Yours is so radiant and captivating. She draws me closer, a warm in my heart. she smile.. and the scene change.. Its like in a bar, (remembering that there will be an upcoming G.A. of UP Tanggeroes in Saturday) She asked me if we will go, and I said yes. A question popped in my mind, is she interested to com

Ephraim, my alter ego. Synmuh's contradiction and sense of being.. Representing all the good that's left in my wrath. He is my thread that links my past, present and future. Decides everything to the simplest things and all complicated beings.. I was raised greatly in my childhood years. I have my mother to say thanks. With all is lost and confusing, still that light convince me to put all my effort in a spin, not knowing what will bring. Just to know that there will be an answer for them to be silent. Starting to read and regain my lost knowledge. I have this fire to maximize. Hilling the times.Drown me with the morning air. Hey, no ones perfect. That serves a loophole to bring their house down. Maybe accidentally burn it along the way. And yes, we smile for the good and bad. There's no limit what side you are on. I take my path, you take yours. I don't mind that we are born different. But surely you will not make a chance to make it all your own with those pitiful and

My Shadow resemblance that I call "Synmuh Zurh" I stretch at 18 on August 26.. Many questions overwhelm me, added to the previous ones yet to be answered.. 2 Mentors I shared my high school days once said that this is my crucial time, a lot will change in my own line of sight.. I will be somehow troubled they said, and a social event that I call disaster will happen.. But that time will not kill me.. just.. to change me.. for the better.. Yeah, I know it already.. So much drama that I can barely take.. My own personality isn't fit to do what the circumstances direct.. When I lost my dream girl in a sin.. I am the one to blame.. And I suffer every bit of my heart strings.. I decided to let her go, not to worry anymore.. She doesn't love me now, so why hold on for nothing? A fairy tale as she tell, that has a down pit cruel ending.. I have moments yet till December where I faced my own.. I will be ready and continue for my own will.. to manage all and be free to whom I